There you go. That is the last time I will ever say it to you. This is the official end of our friendship, although it has been over for awhile now. Almost 16 years to the day we met it is all done.
I know you blame me for all of this. For the crumbling of the friendship and to be honest I really don't care. If you need to put the blame all on me to make yourself feel good then go right ahead, it doesn't make a difference to me. You can go on and on all you want about how I took advantage of you and I don't care. I know the truth. Not even that I know the truth I can see and admit the truth. Yes I fucked up and didn't pay you back on time. That is my mistake and I have nobody to blame but myself. But if you think that is the only reason why this ended than you are kidding yourself.
Go ahead claim that you are the worlds greatest friend. Say it all you want, but remember that it is self proclaimed. I hate to burst your bubble but the reality is you might be the worlds worst friend. Okay well that might be a little to harsh. I will admit that you had your good moments, but in the end you let our friendship be determined by something so petty. MONEY! That's really all you care about. All that is important to you. It is how you define everything in life. Including happiness and friendship.
So before I go on and rip you and show how pathetic you really are I will give you your due. Yes you took me to New York and i am very grateful for that. Now let me ask you this. Is that what makes you such a great friend?
Friendship is a personal relationship shared between each friend for the welfare of the other, in other words, it is the relationship of trust, faith and concern for each other feelings.
That is the definition of friendship. When you read that it makes it sound like something so special, something that is priceless. Something we never had. Well at least not from your end. That's how I saw our friendship. That's how I tried to treat you. I put your welfare above my own so many times, but looking back I can't say you ever did for me.
What did you ever do for me? When were you ever there for me? Other than helping me out financially? Lets take a look back. How many times have you eaten at my house? Gone out for dinner with my family, or to the movies, football games, hockey games and even a couple of basketball games? Now how many times have I eaten at your house? I never have. Nor have I ever been out with your family, I haven't even been invited. Think about all the times you would come over late cause you needed to talk and I would stay up all night long listening to you bitch and complain. Offering you help and advice. Even when I had to go to work at 2am. All those nights I didn't get any sleep because you needed me. Not once did I ever complain. When you had your ordeal at work I was there for you every step of the way. I gave you so much advice that you never listened too. That you just shrugged off like I was dumb and didn't know what I was talking about. Turns out I was right and if you had only listened to me you wouldn't have been in this whole mess in the first place. But despite you not trusting me I still opened my home and family to you. We took you in and treated you like part of the family. We shared our Christmas with you and I let you take over my room for a week. I could go on but I think you get the picture.
The last time we spoke you blew up on me. Yelling and trying to act all mad and tough. In reality you were lame. It was laughable. You went on and on abut how pathetic I was. How I have no friends and no education. I think that is a joke coming from you. How many pieces of paper do you have? Two and what has that gotten you? Nothing! You are at a job you hate that isn't what you want to be doing yet you don't have the balls to leave. I love my job, I love what I do. It may never make me rich but I am happy. I am happy with my life and happy with my true friends. I wouldn't change any of it. So go look in the mirror and see who is really the pathetic one. Reality sucks eh!
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